In 2016 passed by in the blink of an eye. More so than any other year I can remember. But somewhere in there I managed to go to Los Angeles a few times, take two long road trips to different national parks, experience SXSW, escape to Sedona with my mom, sneak up to Portland a few times, take some weekend camping trips, go for long hikes and get away for day trips. I made it a priority to spend more time with friends and reconnect with the people I love. I got back in touch with my own creative energy by starting this project, knitting, throwing pots, sewing, stamping, embroidering, taking more photos, making new recipes and all kinds of DIYing. I learned to ask for help, to reach out to the people around me and that it’s okay to lean on others. I did my best to make my thoughts and feelings known, to let myself be seen. I was floored by all of the great love and support I received from so many people in every facet of my life. I read and read and read. I tapped back into my spiritual self and explored new healing modalities. I found happiness in dancing my heart out every weekend morning in a little studio in Oakland. I cried. I said goodbye to dear friends and people I’d once held close. I sang at the top of my lungs in my car. I got rid of things and redecorated my house. I finally found a style that suits me and learned how to properly make my hair messily tousled with curls. I said yes to things that scared me and did a better job of saying no. I put myself out there and reached for things that I wanted or wanted to be a part of. I worked on myself, learning more about how I operate and why. I laughed and smiled until my cheeks hurt. I realized just how strong I can be.
As I always do, I made a list of New Year goals. I didn’t make good on all of them but I feel pretty good about the progress I did make. Looking at them again now I don’t imagine my goals and hopes for 2017 will be too entirely different. I’m sure even with similar goals my year will look altogether different. I’m looking forward to what’s bound to come in 2017, whatever it may be. I’m grateful for the life that I live. For all of the people, places and things that make it up. I’m thankful for every day I’m given, even when I don’t always remember to be. One of the biggest things I realized in 2016 is that I alone am in charge of what my life looks like. I have to call the shots, I cannot sit by and expect it to go the way I hoped for. I have to say my piece. I have to be brave and embrace change. I have to be the one to jump. So for 2017 that’s my biggest project. To actively route my life in the direction of my choosing. Bring on the new year!