Do you ever have those days where you’re all of the sudden overwhelmed by the future? You start burying yourself in a spiral of unknowns. The fear that surrounds the unknown starts weighing you down until it’s hard to breathe. Sometimes I get this anxious overwhelmed feeling. A feeling driven by the dichotomy between reminiscing about the past —the life you know— and fear of the unknown future. When this happens I feel compelled to sit by the ocean, dig my toes into the sand, breathe in the fresh air and let myself feel small against the backdrop of something so much bigger. The ocean waves provide a steady soundtrack to time my breathing to. The sand grounds me and it’s been said that salt water is the cure for everything. The ocean is where I go when I need to slow down, take a step back and reflect on my life. Staring off into the beauty of the ocean reminds me to think about all the beautiful things in my life. And how I couldn’t possibly have dreamed up all the things, people and places that have made up my life thus far. It makes me realize how fortunate I am for all of the experiences I’ve had in life. It allows me to instead be overwhelmed with gratitude. Being filled with gratitude for my life helps to release that anxiety. I tell myself that it’s okay to miss the past because it has been beautiful. That it’s okay to feel uncertain in the present because it’s always easier to see your blessings in hindsight. And that it will always be ok. Reflection shows me that this is a pattern. The past is made up of a series of todays — the present — and from this present day I can see that so far the future has always worked out. Suddenly the unknowns of the future don’t seem so scary. It calms me down. I remind myself, you are exactly where you need to be right now. You can’t see it yet but amazing things are going to happen. And one day you’ll have this feeling again and you’ll sit there and be able to see all of the beauty that transpired between that day and today. Breathe in. Breathe out. Step calmly into the unknown one day at a time. Keep your head up and your heart open. Let your light shine and let all that love come in. Fear not the unknown for it is a sea of possibilities.
I am not afraid of tomorrow, for I have seen yesterday and I love today. – William Allen White